Pitty Party.... yea I am allowed

Its Sunday Morning and I feel like poo poo. My stomach is getting bigger. I am in constant pain. I am loosing SO much hair. I am gaining some weight back. I feel very alone and discouraged. But you know what, I don't care and I am allowed. I feel like a failure these days. I have put out my hand for friends to hang to and it has been refused. Boy that is a hard one. I feel helpless and depressed. It doesn't help that I keep forgetting my meds....

Around me is caos and I don't care. So here didn't his little story cheer you up.....

Happy Sunday

What can I say...

In a time where there is WAR... people are fighting about nothings... please... grow up people. People not ordering French Fries but Freedom Fries.... poeple boohing national atems... people acting like children. What the heck is this all about. We are only here for a very short time to start with and we find petty things to fight about. When someone shows you love, friendship, help or prayers. Take It...For the longest time, I didn't and regretted it. I find myself in situations where I am greatfull for the hand that is there to help me.

Think of what is happening and see yourself help and caring lots more...

On this Oscar night................Be good.

Hi everyone

Just checking in and as everyone is today, watching and waiting for the news. I am praying for everyone involved. I had a plane ticket to go to Florida last thursday and would of been coming back this friday. Due to my health and not feeling confortable beeing away from my family, I am happy to be home.

Thinking of all my friends and praying for them............Be Good

Mid-Week Blues...

Already half the week gone. Where does the time fly. I am more busy now than when I was working.

I had my visit with the surgeon. He confirmed that I need more surgery. He basically wanted to admit me right away. He was not very happy when I told him that I was not having him do the surgery but someone else near my home. I guess he thinks I don't trust him... Is he right !!! Maybe.... Anyway, I have a appointment with a surgeon on May 6th and I am told that I am very lucky to have a date before the fall... imaging that... so I should have surgery around that time. 1 week in hospital and 3 to 5 weeks recovery at home but this time, no lifting NOTHING or NOONE for 6 months... Just in case. Isn't that a great way to start the summer....

On the bright side, I have tickets to see Bruce Springsteen on April 19th. I am going with my neighbor Mark. His wife Lori(my friend) gave me to him for a night date.... hi hi hi She is trusting and very pregnant. Her dad even offered to drive us and pick us up... how cool is that or is it becasue he doesn't trust us... We are both Springsteen and Tom Jones fan... Our spouses and the other neighbors think we are strange.. Well we are...

So on this, I promise feet massages to the girls so off I am to prepare the SPA. Have a great evening and .........Be Good

Welcome to my temporary home.......

I have lost my Grey Matter power because I changed URL and have no idea how to get it back so until I figure it out, this will be my new home....

So what has been up... Well lots... I am continuing my health saga. I am seeing the surgeon tomorrow again but this time for incisional hernias. I will need to get them repaired. So this means yet another surgery. I am already loosing so much hair and I am freaked out about all this.

I feel very left out in so many situations right now and I am trying to help but it seems that it is not required. I guess I am very paranoid. Anyway, I know that if I am needed... I am there...

So on this short post, Be Good and I will be back real soon